Okay, bye, 2016.

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This day last year, with about an hour of 2015 to go, I was 30,000 feet in the air going through what I can now say was tiny turbulence compared to the last 12 months and was told this would be the hardest year of my life. My only reflection on it is, “It f*ing better be.” I leave this year wondering if anything will work out (personally, nationally or globally) and hoping that I might be able to stop waking up in the middle of the night sobbing. I’m glad I’ve reached the age where a year feels like just several months.

Thankfully, I started learning German this year and they have a perfect word for this: Lebensmüde. Life-tired. From an article on the Book of Life: “We believe ourselves to be firmly attached to life, but a lot of our behaviour attests to something more interesting and troubling; an occasional longing to give up our hold on existence. It is deeply useful to have this word to hand on gloomy days when it feels like nothing will ever work out.”

2016 wasn’t really anyone’s year so instead of wishing you a happy new year, I’m going to say that I hope, for myself as well as you, that this incoming year will reveal and affirm why we’re still here.

4 thoughts on “Okay, bye, 2016.”

    1. Yeah. Halfway through 2017, it still doesn’t feel real. Though I will have to say that even though we elected the apocalypse, this year feels somehow less bad than last year. But maybe that’s because, as you said, it hasn’t all really hit yet. Like, this is real. We elected a raging narcissist who boasts about sexual assault, emoboldens people to commit hate crimes proudly and can’t see past his own reflection in anything. Oh, and lies with impunity. And people WORSHIP him. Christians worship him. It doesn’t feel real.

    1. Yeah. Halfway through 2017, it still doesn’t feel real. Though I will have to say that even though we elected the apocalypse, this year feels somehow less bad than last year. But maybe that’s because, as you said, it hasn’t all really hit yet. Like, this is real. We elected a raging narcissist who boasts about sexual assault, emoboldens people to commit hate crimes proudly and can’t see past his own reflection in anything. Oh, and lies with impunity. And people WORSHIP him. Christians worship him. It doesn’t feel real.

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